Purgatory

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PURGATORY

Written By: Catherine Vartain Frilund


Another sleepless night

You’re laying with me

No matter what I try

Troubled thoughts grip me

I haven’t slept in months

At least not naturally

My mind is wondering

Why do you keep me?


The idols at my altar are shaped like you

A testament to everything I’ve put you through

And my diary tells stories ‘bout a lover

The twists and the turns in the complex plot

The angel says “stay” and the demon says 

“He loves me not”

In this endless purgatory I can’t escape


In this endless surge

In this endless purge

In this endless purgatory


In this hell on earth

I'm a fallen bird

And I scream "why God? Oh God?"


You couldn't make me different?

Why us?

Aren't I fucked enough already?

And I scream "Oh God, why God?"

Why us?


I try to change my mind

Cuz all my time

Gets sucked into this vortex

Scenarios come out in prose

My poetry is complex

I’m stuck in my mind

Doing my time 

For every wrong I’ve done

In this endless purgatory I can’t escape


Don't know where to go

I wish I could fall asleep but no...



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